what easy comes...easy goes....

not often i get what i want...i think mostly because i have no luck.

it's been a weird year...too much has happened but i remember one time when i wasn't sure (and still...)that if god really exist...and i ask it...something...i was whit my guard down and i ask for the very first time...someone in my life...someone like me...i don't have luck in love or relationships and i never really thought that i need any of those..but i did...i felt alone so...i asked.

i don't know if it hear me...but i am waiting...i really do.. i dont wanna be alone...it sucks walk upon the earth whit no one by your side. or holding your hand....i'm not a bad guy i actually think that te world deserves to be saved..that theres a lot of love in my heart and wants to go outside...to that person...that unique form of life who has a name..a family..a history..that single person who can came to my life and walk whit me.

people always says..don't look for love...love comes aaround when you least expect it....well i'm done waiting...my heart is full of emotions...my body too. is not enough living a life like a fool...fooling around all the time. i know i'm young but i'm also mature. i need to feel that i belong to somewhere...that there is room for me in this world otherwise i have no clue what the hell am i doing here...is that too much to ask??

i wrote this in english because writing this...in my languaje makes me nervious and make it real.

but not all in my life this year has been bad...i know i made some bad calls. but...who doesn't? no one is here to judge, specially not to me.

hahahhahaha.....like a curacao...full of emotions today...perhaps because in two weeks is my birthday and i hate it. don't want people around me that day..don't want cake...or wishes...'cause nothing is really going to happen. life has proof to me that wishes don't come true. why this year should be different??.


mmmm...long time whitout post something here...i'm done anyway...there is no funny day today...or party...just me and my head...(or maybe the heat...i'm not sure.).


just wanna tell you my friend that...thank you for been this way...no judge. just what i want it...

bye....peace??? what the frakk!.

funny life

Nada que decir...estoy feliz...no necesito nada solo seguire mi rumbo y sere feliz por el tiempo que sea necesario.

no viviendo en el pasado.  esa es la clave.

Arena y sol! el mar azul...(8)..

Porfin...ya era hora que todo terminara..

no es que no piese en mi futuro, o que sea demasiado LIGHT para ver las cosas, es solo que no me gusta estar encadenado a algo por mcho tiempo, mi trabajo consumio tiempo de mi vida la cual necesitaba, no soy farrero..NO esos tiempos ya pasaron.. hoy empieza un nuevo ciclo en mi vida (tan dramatico) donde espero hacer cosas que hace mucho tiempo no hago.

INTINERARIO:

buscar pega por un mes...lo suficiente para añadir a mi finiquito y poder viajar.

playa..ir a valpo, pasarla bien, trabjar si tengo que hacerlo, hacer deportes...un amor de verano!(8) nadar..SIII ME ENCANTARIA VOLVER A NADAR!.

REDESCUBRIRME...no es saludable vivir en el pasado. PARA NADIE.

tener SEXO SEXO SEXO..(no es que no tenga mucho...pero un poco mas seria agradable..)

conocer gente..crear vinculos..dejar de ser tan frio..no se vivir la vida loca con mas intensidad.

SER FELIZ...quien no seria feliz con un verano naranja...?

bueno..esos son mis planes que voy a concretar porque soy hombre de palabra..no hago atajos..no busco soluciones creativas ni me asusto ante lo nuevo..solo ACCION Y REACCION

No puedo decir que no hice vinculos en esa pega..hice hartos..gente a quien le tengo mucho cariño y que vere en algun momento..risas y mas risas...angustias estupidas xD..peleas absurdas..bueno todo queda ya en el pasado..lo mejor de la vida hay que atesorarlo en uno por siempre...de los malos recuerdos hay que pulirse..cultivarse y crecer..

muerto de calor...estoy OUT..no puedo escribir mas...

PAZ...pronto?